This felt good to write today. My life lately.

Hold on and I will make this worth your while. I will show you every single beautiful thing in this world. We will sit in one spot for hours and watch nature be the miracle that it is. We will have the time of day, and night, and the next day to give to it. For in every moment that you feel alone, there’s a better one coming. And for every question you have, well, you won’t always find answers. But you can find another heavy soul searching for them to. And when you find out you can scream the question from the mountaintop with someone else; that’s an answer in itself. Tears fall from my eyes every night, or at least I wish they did. These days the emotions just get trapped inside. Do you know what it’s like to want nothing more to just cry, but you can’t? This isn’t the worst life. It’s just mine. And I want to be happy so I can help others be happier. But I want to find a body that doesn’t feel okay unless the arms attached to it are around me. And that doesn’t show that it’s weak, that’s strength that you can’t compare to anything else. 300 tons is insignificant at this point. Hearts have felt heavier. And sometimes the only way to get all that weight off isn’t a good way. Lives end too quickly. You can blame them until you hear the story they left behind. Then there’s nothing left but questions that you won’t find the answers to. You are all stuck there in the silence that is louder than any rock concert you’ve ever been to. But go find a mountaintop, stand on it at night, look up at the stars, and ask away.