I LUVE U

this right now, is one of these moments that I get every so often. They can be considered rare. Moments, where for some reason or another, I just want to have unconditional love with someone. I just want, like I once had, someone to hold and kiss and never let go. Someone to fall asleep with, so waking up in the morning and knowing they are there makes everyday the best day ever. these moments, are the one's that seem more real than life ever could be. But they aren't beyond life. These are the moments I want to cry, but my eyes are dry. The moments that make me feel trapped. They hurt, they are a little painful. But nothing is better in the world than these moments. It's hard to describe them. A hug right now means nothing, unless it's from the one person that probably won't ever touch me again. This is pain. This is real. This is me feeling alone. This is my wanting to cry, and let it all out. But for some reason, it's trapped inside. These moments make everything else in my life seem to make sense. This is why I still don't believe in love a second time around.

I'm so hurt.
But I'm more alive then ever.
And there is something so special about that.
<3