This time of year and me don't get along

FUCK CHRISTMAS
there are more broken homes than anything else in this country. think about that and have a merry christmas.
Let me be negative for once in my life.
Depression and I are fighting. I'm trying to stay positive, to not let things get to me. But it's hard.

I don't get how someone can sleep next to you all night, and then not talk to you for a couple of days. Especially when they are so sad when you have to go.

I feel guilty saying it a little bit. But It feels soooo good to. The good as in doing the right thing or the good as in a temporary high, I don't know. But I'll take what I can get right now.

I hope to I don't fuck this up. I really don't. That's all that's been in my mind since the beginning.
I feel good about this.
But by writing like this, well, I am fucking it up.
So I'm going to stop.

"Merry Christmas, I could care less" - that song will be my best friend tomorrow night

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