Finally really catching up.

Warped Tour was so amazing. I helped out at the TWLOHA tent for most of the day. It was fun, and I had some awesome conversations. I hated that one girl who came up and asked me something and I just kind of froze. I asked Chris, and he talked to her; but I hated it. I don't know why I did. Right now I can think of 50 different ways I could've responded. I guess it just takes time. But it was a great day. Seeing Underoath backstage was soooooo awesome. Jason is a great guy and I'm glad he was able to do that for me, and my friend who I know it meant the world to. It was a great day. I'd love to intern for TWLOHA and I hope some day down the road it happens. I feel like I can learn so much. I feel like I will feel at home with other people that are willing to help out. I could talk about this for awhile, but moving on.
Life is going well. I have a few things to look forward to. The reunion is in 8 days. I have all the things I take for granted. And those are awesome.
I still am trying to figure out so many things. (there will always be questions left unanswered.)
Everything happens for a reason though. I am trying so hard to not let things get to me. To let it go when someone doesn't answer or respond, or if I get blown off, ect. It's hard. I know I would be so much stronger if I knew I had that one person who I could love and knew loved me and that we would be together. With that, everything else is easier.
But there are good things about this way too. I love thinking the things I do. Pondering the questions I ask. I feel like this is so much better than other professions I could be going into. Because I don't look at this as a profession; I look at it as a way of life. And one of the few ways in which life should be lived.
Also, A good friend reminded me of a very important thing tonight- Jesus hung out with sinners.
We should try to not judge people, but only show them kindness. There is good in everyone. And one we find it, we should just try to help them with whatever is that won't bring out the good in them. That's not worded as well as I would like it, but it will do. After all life is a lot of settling. But I am tired. Off to bed.

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