I am a human. Nothing more, nothing less.

I need love. I need people to care about me.
Live is at it's best for me when i have arms that will wrap themselves around me,
and a body I can hold.
Lie next to it.
Into the night, and out of the night.

Today is not great.
Yesterday wasn't either.
I don't know what tomorrow holds,
but I'll stick around and find out.

I look at the water, and think of what it'd be like to swim in it.
To freeze and feel something so strong and so real.
This week hasn't seemed real.
Those upcoming will allow me to decide if that's in a good or bad way.
If you're laying alone tonight, and wishing you didn't have you feel so empty, know your not alone.
The victims are here, as are the offenders.
The rich who have their own chef
and the poor who struggle to find their next meal.
The old who feel like there's nothing left and too much has changed.
The young who are getting drunk and fucking (up their lives) or trying to change the world for the better.
Or maybe they are somewhere in the middle.
Life's all about middles. Trying to find how many questions we can ask before we seem annoying.
Trying to talk to that girl who we think about when we fall asleep at night. And oh how we just pray she is dreaming about us.
For we want her to like us, but we don't know. And we are so close to scaring her away.

A gun can be turned on anyone.
The trigger can be pulled, and a life can be ended.
And another.
And another.
and sadly sometimes it can seem like the killing and the dying, the raping and the torture, the pain and the isolation... it will never change.
We are told to look for the good. To find it. And seize it. Hold on to it and treasure it like that first toy we'd never let go of.

A 9 year old commited suicide last week.
On the same day, not too far away from where he did it, a couple got married.
Hundreds of new lives were brought into this world.
You'll want to focus on the last two sentences instead of the one before them.
Because the bad things scare us. And we run away from them.
We hide like fucking cowards. under the drugs, the drama, and the everyday things that can keep us busy.

I just sat in my bed at 1pm and watched tv for an hour.
Some little child in Africa will die today.
Clean water and a nice meal could make it more peaceful and less painful for him.
Medicine which costs $10 could probably save him.
Let's go out to eat tonight and have a few drinks afterwards.
We got our paychecks today, and it's a great way to celebrate.

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