It's the week of the year that sucks. Stress if coming form everywhere and I'm feeling it. It's almost 5am, and I've just woken up. Can't go back to sleep. I have 3 papers due by Thurs the 20th (I'm only half way through the first one). I have a new job that worries me and also stresses me out. I have debt close to $3,000 (and let's not talk about the college loans...) I have to apply to grad schools, and hope that I can get in with a 3.0 GPA, because that's the best I have. Somewhere in between all of this I'm supposed to find time to work on me, and be a better person myself. To be a better boyfriend, a better friend, and a better son. I'm learning the more things pile on, and deadlines are posted, the easier it is to lose yourself in all of it. I'm stuck not having time to answer the questions "Who am I? How have I been doing lately? What can I do better? When will I get some me time?" It seems the only time left for me to think about these things is 5am, robbing me of sleep because my brain is wide awake. But I need my sleep. Because tomorrow I have to finish a paper, go to work, prove I'm ready to serve on my own, and then remember everything else on the list of stuff I have to do. I don't like who I am this week. Hopefully a week from now that answer can change. Hopefully....