Hope

I had a great idea today I shared with my best friend. An idea to start a group(ish) to talk about the ideas and values of love and human relationships. Based mainly off of ideas of Leo Buscaglia. I think it could turn into an amazing thing if we go about it the right way. I'm hopeful for it and it gave me something to be excited and happy about for today. I think this is part of the grieving process so here it goes: You are the best person I've ever known. I can't begin to put into words how great the past two years of my life have been thanks to you.... I want to write more but I can't right now. I guess I thought I could do this already. It's too hard to think about it and then look around an apartment that is empty besides me. It's surprising and pathetic the lengths that I've gone through the past week just to run away from the fact that I'm now single and I have to accept that. That I've ended a major chapter in my life and in many aspects the best chapter so far. I don't know if I fully believe that my story can get better from here. I know it'll get worse first. "This doesn't feel right." I've never stopped thinking about that since I read it. <3