First, Read this blog. It's way better than anything I've written

http://askheychris.livejournal.com/

He's so real, he's so honest. It's so respectable. This guy is just, wow. Words aren't fitting.
Currently sleeping over a friends house. I wish I met this girl months ago, if not years ago. I feel like at the least, she's the super close best friend I've never had. I'm usually not okay with "doing nothing" when hanging out with someone. And I know I need to work on that. And I know she makes me feel comfortable chilling and "doing nothing". Driving an hour up here in a blizzard to hang out with her is so worth it. She's asleep on the other couch in the room right now. I'll b sleeping soon (I hope).
We went in a hot tub outside tonight. 90% of my body felt so warm and relaxed while my face was getting hit with snow. It was a great experience. I loved it. Though the ten seconds of getting out of the hot tub to getting to the house, including walking through the snow... yeah, you can bet that SUCKED!!!!! But overall, it was fun.
I'm leaving in 7 days. It's becoming so real. I'm wondering what/who I'm going to miss the most. I'd say it's her, but I think we are just going to keep getting closer and do a great job at staying in touch. So I wonder... what am I going to miss? I kinda think/hope that I'll be so busy I won't miss much. I wonder how much I'm going to miss my family. I'll tell ya, Christmas this year went pretty well. Our whole family was actually getting along and having fun at our Grandparents house. (see pic below)
I just want the change to happen. I don't want to sit here and think about it. I want to be down there. I don't want to worry, or make assumptions, or have expectations. I just want to go. So this last week is going to be hard. Especially seeing hanging out with this new friend has been the main thing I'm loving doing everyday, but she's leaving Tuesday. Maybe it's so I'm going to know how others will feel about me leaving. Cause I know saying bye to her will suck.
But overall, life is great. I really mean that, and I'm really accepting and believing that. Thinking of the good things.
Movies we watched tonight: Bug's Life (Disney old school), Radio, Up (Disney). In case you're bored and have an hour or two to spare....


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With hope and warmth and hugs tonight,
<3