Parents

I don't talk about my parents a lot. I'm lucky. I'm soooo damn lucky, and I don't think I fully appreciate that. I was raised very well by two loving people. By two parents that have stayed together. That have been supportive, and cared through it all. They aren't perfect, but they fucking try.

I got to go up to MA this past weekend. I surprised my parents for their birthday (yes, they have the same birthday). I walked through the door and my Mom started crying. They were both very glad to see me. My brother came up. We got to all go out to dinner, his girlfriend, a couple of my friends, and my grandparents. We were together and we were a family. It was a wonderful night. The best part about it, no one was fake. We didn't have to laugh too loud and keep telling jokes so it wouldn't get awkward. We just laughed because we laughed. We talked.

I got to go see a lot of friends this weekend, which I'm so thankful for. I spent some more time with my parents Sunday night, having a home-cooked dinner. We talked a bit, I told them about things that have been going on, I herd some things that have been new with them. Monday they took me to the airport. They came in with me, and we ended up sitting down at a restaurant there, grabbing some food before I left. We talked a bit, but there were also moments of silence. My flight got delayed, so we stayed there later.

I wanted to speak in these moments of silence. I've had a tough time with some things with my parents over the years. There have been times that I've doubted them, and that I've pushed them away. I wanted to apologize. I wanted to tell them that they did good raising me. That I was so thankful for them and that I loved them. That I know I made it hard sometimes, but I'm glad they never gave up. That I couldn't be the person I am today without their support. I wanted to, but I just couldn't. My flight got delayed a second time..... and then a third.... I felt like God was giving me more chances. But I just let them go by.

I walked to the gate, I went to say bye and tears were flowing down both of their cheeks. "It never gets easier saying bye to you Kev" my dad said. I hugged him and told him I loved him. Then I hugged my mom and told her I loved her. I told them we would skype this weekend. Tears were starting to form in my eyes, just like they are right now. I said bye and walked towards security. I turned back and waved. I realized that my parents are growing older. That they will be retired in a few years, and then, who knows. I realized that I probably won't ever live with them again. That moments like this were going to become very golden. That I can only pray I get more chances like this one. Cause I fucked this one up. Or maybe I just wasn't ready. I don't know. But I love them. And I'm so thankful.

We all have someone that we love and that is in our lives. Go find that person right now and hug them.

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