Phone Conversations...

This is going to be a little similar to a blog I will post tomorrow night, only like a sentence or two. I have followers on my blog now. Before I only had a few, now I have 11. I think that's cool. Makes me want to write better. So here I go.
I called my best friend from home tonight. We talked for close to 2 hours. The conversation could've went on the whole night. We bring out the best in each other. We seriously do. It's great that I have him. Being down here in Florida, it's real tough sometimes. I've been here about 2 months now, but it still doesn't feel like home. I don't feel as close to people as I could be. I don't feel connected. I know this takes time, and I'm trying to be patient. But there's something in here that I think we can all relate to. Being around people that don't know you well, that really shakes your sense of self. You start to question things, especially if you aren't encouraged as you used to be. To go from the support of a large community to living in a house with 5 strangers, that's challenging. I'm not saying just for me, I know it is for all of us. But we have all been put in situations where we start to question who we are. This is challenging that for me. And I can say that it is challenging my thoughts, my beliefs, and who I feel I am. I have to really look at myself. What am I willing to change? What can I give to this community? What are my core values, that I will stand strong on? There are a lot of questions.

Sometimes it's great to call someone back home and know that you are going to have a real conversation. That you are going to to feel real. I felt like Kevin Daniel Pelletier tonight. And not anyone of the 6 billion+ people in this world. I felt alive. Chris and I talked about how we both believe down the road we will start our own non-profit. It'd be pretty cool, and there is a great possibility that it could happen. Time will tell.

Starting to try to figure out what life will be like after this internship. Stay in FL, move back to MA, become a hobo? The options are endless. It's exciting, but also extremely scary. I can say I'm living the life I want though. I'm choosing to do the things I want to. Can you say the same? I don't ask that to put you down, I ask that as a challenge.

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