To myself, 10, or 20 years from now

Dear Kevin,

I wanted to stop right now and write a note to the future me. I hope you are still around. I hope nothing has happened to you, and I also hope that you haven't given up. I was going to sit here and write a blog complaining about the world and blaming no one and everyone at the same time. However, that's not new. That's not progressive. Maybe this isn't progressive either, but I feel like I'm at least getting closer.

First I want to talk to you about kids. If you do have some, or are ever going to in the future, please remember this. Teach them that they should always feel they have the freedom to do what makes them happy. See, I'm sitting here frustrated that I'm back in college once again. I'm wishing I hadn't come to college. I'm wishing that after high school I could've taken a step back. Explored, been given some freedom and encouragement to invest time and effort into figuring out who I am, what I want, and what life means to me. I don't want my kids to make the same mistake I did, and blindly go directly from high school to college, or a job. Before they have put thousands of dollars and so much of their precious time on this earth into something they have to believe in it. Believe in it because they have looked into their souls and that's the answer they've found.

Secondly, I hope you are doing something that makes you happy. If you have a job, I hope you're happy doing it. If you're not, then please get off your ass and quit right now. Remember this: Love and Happiness > everything else. I'm debating right now which is more important, happiness or love. Any thoughts?

Love. I hope that word makes you smile. I hope it is playing a big role in your life. You are (or rather, were) someone that cares a lot about people and relationships. I hope that hasn't changed. You can always have more time for a couple of cups of coffee, and time with friends. Put them first. I want to write other things, but I hope reading this did you some good. Keep smiling.

I love you.

With Hope,
Kevin



I realized something about myself right now. I have been hesitant to reach out to people. I use to be annoyed with people the would post things on facebook like "anyone want to hang out?". But that's what I do now. I think I'm scared to reach out to individuals as much because I fear rejection. This is something I can hopefully work on. I believe good things don't come easy. Go after the good things. : )

I'll read this in the AM. I'm going to bed. G night

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