Who are you? Why are you here?

These are two questions we will never have solid answers to in our lives. I guess you can say I'm always chasing after better parts of answers. I don't think I ever have to worry about settling in life, because I question things and strive so hard for better, truer, happier things to full up my life.

I've been at school not even 3 weeks, and I'm looking for a change. I think it'll come in the form of my job, as I'm ready to be done with that. It's easy and mindless, but I'm more valuable than this. Driving people around (sometimes drunk people) is a waste of my talents and time. Money should never run my life, and the number one reason I have this job is just that, money. I want to find a job that I love doing, one that is meaningful to me.

This is something that I think is really tough for a lot of us. I don't think I'm at all alone in this one. Having the desire for the focus of your life to be something that you find meaningful; that makes you happy. However, our beliefs and values are always changing (and hopefully growing) as we go through life. I can start planing now to do something this summer. But by the time summer comes, will I still want to do it?

Why did I come back to school? Because it was one of the easiest things to do. Also because I know I have some happy moments hear.

I'm ashamed at that answer. I was sitting home all fall and I never really stopped and thought about what I really want. I want to go to Africa. I want to go check out Cali and learn to be a better surfer. I want to spend more of my time getting to know people for who they are. I know that I also have to be responsible and pay for things and that I will have a debt coming out of college (whenever I finally graduate). I think it's time to sit and think about these things. Hopefully I take advantage of some of my free time this week and do just that.

There will always be people that don't challenge themselves. I hope I'm never one of them.

I need more cups of coffee shared in the company of a friend in my life. I hope this week you get to do just that at LEAST once.

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