This is a week behind schedule, but here it is:

Note to future self.

Dear Kevin,
How is life being a Rockstar? Did you end up getting a second home in the Bahamas or Hawaii? Nah, I’m just kiddin!

I hope things are going well. I’m going to tell you about the person I am right now. I love going back and reading things I wrote a year or two ago, and even longer if I can. I have noticed that when I do this, I always hope for two things. That I loved the person I was, and that I can see areas in which I’ve grown. I want to be able to relate to the old me, but to also feel like I’ve learned more, grown, and matured. I don’t think it’s up to me to tell you what kind of person you should be, because who knows where life will take us. I just hope that you are chasing your dreams and you’re doing things that really make you smile. I hope you haven’t given in and allowed money and society’s views to run your life.

I’m reading books about “Hey Chris” right now. He’s an awesome dude that pushes to always become a better person. He is straight edge, and he talks a lot about the spirit of “The true fuck you”. How it is a choice, it is owning who you are and loving it. How we have 2 swear fingers and a smile, and no one can take that away from us. It’s really cool. Being in touch with who you are.

Right now I’m struggling a lot with the “Who am I?” question. I’ve tried to not focus on it so much, because I know it to an extent. I guess it’s one of those questions that I feel like we never get a set answer to, so I’m coming to terms with that, and trying to live life. Any luck with this though? Any better of an answer?

Love is the best thing life has to offer. I still believe that. Love is my kryptonite. Is it still yours? Nothing can really make my heart break harder and faster than a girl. If you’re single, then that’s good. I hope you are still trying to make yourself a better person, and I hope that you haven’t given up nor given in. I hope if you are with someone, you are truly happy. Like seriously, truly happy! ARE YOU!?!?!? Don’t fuck this up! You might be with this person the rest of your life. I’ve put a lot of effort, time, and energy into not settling. So I hope you haven’t.

I hope you are doing good things. You know what the sentence means, that it’s way more than those words. I hope you feel alive most days. You get to do work that doesn’t seem like work. I hope your heart is strong. If it’s weak, I hope you have the strength to pick up the pieces and to give them out to people. Remember your blog “I’m a people person”? Well, you should go read it. Do what makes you happy, and don’t give that up for anybody or anything. I have faith in you though.

As I’m writing this, I feel that the type of person I am is one that pushes myself a lot. I believe that we as people can always do more, and I love that about myself. I hope that spark is still inside you. It’s special, as long as you don’t let it run you down.

There’s a saying I say everyday to people right now, and it’s one that you need to remember for yourself, You were meant for amazing things. Listen to Sleeping At Last. Go for a walk and get lost in nature. Call Chris Calabro and talk to him today. I hope you are still friends. If not, get over whatever shit you fought about, or the fact that you both suck at staying in touch sometimes and just call him! He’s your best friend. He’s an incredible dude. People change, but if you are reading this and smiling, then you haven’t changed that much. And I doubt/hope that he’s the same way. Remember the things that are real in life. They get you through. Family is important. Family is important. Family is important. Family is important. I love you. If you don’t feel like any one else does right now, I do. I hope you believe in yourself. Keep your chin up.

Love,
The younger Kevin
3/7/11