it's summer: get a good tan, stay by the pool, call out of work, have fun..... but don't forget to be alone

why do i write this? most of the time its only because i want to feel like theres a chance im helping someone or reaching someone. but i dont know. im ignorant just like the people i look down on. i hope that these words can mean something to someone and help them, but i dont know really. i dont get to see the eyes in the front row yet. i dont get fan mail. for all i know, no one could be reading this. but i still do it anyway. most of the time im writing cause i dont have anyone that will listen. and when i do, they'll get tired of listening to me. cause i can fuckin talk forever. so do me a favor if your actaully reading this because your life is that boring. or maybe you've figured out how fucked up everything else is in the world, nd this just make sense. these words say every secret you wish you could. almost. but save it. keep it. and if i actually make it someday, show it to me nd let me know that i had someone care since the days of me being not a musician or a guy in a band thats a douche; but just a plain douche bag that can also be one the most caring hearts when it comes to other broken ones. 

i wish some person that doesnt know me just walked up to me and told me they love my writing. the day that happens is the day i'll start to feel alive again. <3