Lonely

This has been my biggest struggle the past week, and I feel like it will continue to be a struggle in my life while I'm down here. I'm ready to start facing this and trying to learn through it instead of letting it control me. I am a very passionate person. My passion goes towards other people mostly. It's difficult when that passion doesn't have a place to go. I can try to put it out through surfing a little bit, but that's difficult when there aren't waves. Passion can't really be put out through reading, writing, or playing bass that much. I've realized that is is realized through physical activity and human interaction. Those are the two main things. I need to learn to hold myself more accountable. I need to be a little more outgoing, and also push myself to do more. More than just 25 push-ups every morning. I can run, and find other ways to be creative. I have also re-learned how incredibly powerful hugs are. They mean the world to me, and can totally turn my day around. So do me a favor. If you can't give me a hug tomorrow, give someone else one. Let's make this world a better place with more love.

I will come out of this alive. I will also come out of it a better person. This is my hope.

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