Coffee

Something I haven't had in months. Because I guess I feel like I was becoming addicted to it, and that I know it's a drug. I didn't want to use it. I guess I felt like I was cheating myself or others by having coffee. Yeah I know, that kinda sounds lame. Tomorrow I'm going to make myself a good breakfast, and I'm going to have coffee. Then I'm going to spend the afternoon writing and making videos of myself talking that no one (possibly not even me) will want to sit through and watch. Tomorrow I'm going to stop selling myself short, and try to push myself.

I'm fucking lonely right now. I'm miserable and broken. And I'm fucking sick of saying that shit. And as much as I want to write things right now that can express these feelings and focus on them, I'm not. I'm trying to grow up, and to look at things a different way. Here's to being positive, especially when it's difficult. Fight this fight with me.

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