I don't know what to do

i care so much. the more alone someone looks, the more i want to help them. hug someone that looks like they need it tomm. not a best friend but someone you don't know. So maybe you can have another best friend. its hard to find even one, so look carefully. sometimes people need to realize that you can't always be there for them. that every time they push you away, you won't push back. because we're all human. perfect is only an idea. but it's so hard to walk away. it's so hard to watch someone else do it. it's not i never give up, it's just that i have more patience. believe me there are times i've wanted to. If i walked away from someone every time i wanted to, i wouldn't have friends for more than a week. patience is of virtue. but why should we wait? we don't have all the time in the world. we're all gona die sometime. probably within this century.
my soft spot is for the people that really need it. i want to find them all. i can honestly say that from the bottom of my heart that nothing is better then helping someone when they really need it. then saving a life, or at least feeling like you did. and i think i deserve just a little bit of credit in that column.
I'm a man of few words i guess you could say. i talk a lot, but it's basically all about the same thing. yes, i could always figure this stuff out better. but i think im afraid to start talking about different things because then i'll seem wrong.
i saw a movie today, and i wanted the hero to die. i think movies are great. but i hate just about every ending of a movie i've seen. ya i've cried, i've felt something sometimes. but that's the problem. whatever we feel or think or "learn" from it isn't real. cause it really is just a movie. its fake. the ending isn't gona happen. they just fill our minds and sometimes hearts with false hope. let's make things real again. let's live in a time that we aren't ashamed of. can we really change? you decide. let me know.

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p.s. i love how my new mac has spell check. prob. makes these a lot easier to read

p.s. beaches are boring in the summer, there too crowded and the sand always gets stuck in your feet and stays there too long. i'm going to stick with pools and ultimate frisbee. but what else is there that's exciting to do in the summer? post-it notes, traffic cones and all that jazz. but stay tuned and i'll let you know.