Right now, I want to bleed

I'm going nowhere fast. I'm sitting here turning into someone I don't want to be. Everything that feels right inside me is telling me to just leave here, go home, and start a band. If I ever actually kill myself, It's probably cause I woke up and realized that I wasn't fallowing my dream and any of this. That I had become someone I hated, and I didn't think it was worth the effort to try to change back into the "real me". Just keep that in mind when you think about "settling" in life

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p.s. I was rereading these. I really I repeat myself on certain ideas a lot. I'm going to try to work on that. And I realized that the past 2 weeks ago my writing has kind of sucked. It has kind of been from my heart. Kind of. I'm sorry. Read me like a book that you love, but then just put me back on the shelf in the library. I'm the author that sits home wondering if anyone out there has something to say about the "book" besides "it sucked"