I want to help someone

It's been awhile. You know what completely sucks also? I haven't hugged anyone in a week. And hugs are up there for the best things ever. Like they are right next to Disney. But I've said that before. I'm in a new town like 60 miles away. I want to meet new people. But I've realized, if you take away some of my friends, I'm not as outgoing and carefree as I thought I was. I can actually be kind of shy. In Somerset it was easy for me to find the people that could use help. Those people are what made me feel alive. But up here, It's hard to find them. Maybe I'm just not looking hard enough or in the right places. Or maybe there just really aren't a lot of people like that in college. I love it when I just keep typing and it feels like the words, my fingers, and this keyboard and all just a runway for my heart to get on this page. It's really nice. I have a band I found today that I totally love. But I'm not telling; because they're going to be my little secret. I'm going to listen to them when I go and just sit under the starts and think. I hope I do more writing up here. I'm starting to "dream" now that this year is just me writing, and then next year I'll find a band and we will start playing. I'm learning a lot about music and it's really cool and kind of fun. It's nice too, being able to actually write down some of the melodies and chorus that I have made up in my head. And how awesome is it that I don't have to worry about people wanting to play a different style of music? I'm the one writing it. Maybe I'll be the start of the next Rocket Summer. Except unlike him (i so just forgot his name) I won't sing. Because that would be bad. We'll I think that's about it. I hate days when it seems like they just drag by, and I have things to do, but I don't have the energy, then at night I just start writing and become wide awake. I get energy. I hope she does the right thing for her. I hope my mind (doesn't) stay off of you and the past. The buildings in the city guide me back to where I started. Something is nice about looking up and seeing tall buildings, but still seeing that one star in the sky above all of the atmosphere.

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