Don't forget to give hugs and tell people how much you care about them

I like this. I feel so much better about it than this summer. It ain't great yet, but who knows what'll happen. this is my life. its odd trying to take it all in. almost seems like im going with it all, and taking it in slowly. making new friends is always hard. the most compatible people can never meet, because it's just in their personality to be alone. why let people in or seem friendly when your not? opportunities are what we make them. So much here just asks me to forget about my past. to move on and consider this a new life. part of me wants to. part of me will never let go. i feel like so much of what i want to do is influenced on the past though. this is a new part of my life however. who knows what i'll make of it. who knows how i'll change. i know i can never let go. and i think im realizing that i dont have to let go of anything, but i can still move on a little bit. memories will always be there and i can go back to them whenever i need to. my heart is a whole different story. the scientists told me that they will probably create a robot that knows how to love before they figure out how exactly mine works. it's like there's a village in my heart. but there's two sides to the village along with an idiot just stuck in the middle of it all. i could look at all the bad aspects of this and probably end up back home with numerous future dates with a couple of couches in different offices. but i'm not. im surprisingly trying to be optimistic. my brain is starting up a lot of work and taking a few extra hours. my heart is getting a little bit of a rest.

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