Friday, August 1, 2008

U'll always have me beat by one

all of this. the songs the shows the music, the stupid shit that is done, the friends. Even on it's best day; when you add it all up, it fall shorts of love.

trying to remember how to be alone. I want it, but I don't want the pain. And all I've been getting the past month is pain strictly in the form of truth. I've started realizing how hard it is to get a band and go somewhere with it. My mind has had battles trying to make me realize that it probably won't happen. and my heart needs a break. maybe it won't happen. those 4 words make me feel more worthless then "i don't love you".

wipe off the blood
just to throw in the towel
i try to keep going because
frankly, this is all i know
we never had a candlelight dinner
and i know now she's the winner
cause all i have is this
and it's something
but it's not a first kiss

first kiss
to bloody wrist
how'd i get here?
what path did i take
by the end of this year
will i still feel fake?
im the mistake
filled with hate
heart's a 20 pound weight
ask life to wait
call my future,
tell it i'll be late

college
scaresme
<3

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